blood/jillybean

'appy new year, loves. -said in her best british accent- make this year a good one, eh? i'm going to try. i won't make resolutions, since i'll only be disappointed when i cannot hold out on them. but, i'll still try to make changes this year. in my life, in the life of others, in my state, my country, my world. i want to make a difference. i live to make a difference. so, even though it's early, here's to the new year. may things be different, and most certainly better, than years gone past. may the worlds of the people i hold dear turn a little more slowly, so they can savor the time they have, and learn not to waste a minute. may mine do the same. may we all find love in the right places, and not take it for granted. may peace be spread worldwide, and let us all revel in it. -raises her glass- here's a toast to a better world for all.

(this will officially be my last post here. so add Add ADD my other journal. PLEASE?! -puppy dog pout-)

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look at me WHORE! hehe. i'm acting like james did last year. -scoffs in disgust-

i've had this journal such a long time. i've had it through so many different turning points in my life. i've written about each and every one in here. my journal has never let me down. but, i believe, there always comes a time when you should start new. old memories sometimes hurt, and there are so many attached to this journal. as much as i don't want to leave it all behind, i know i must. i know there are other people who get a new journal at the end of the year, so i figure now would be a good time to start, you know? new year, new beginning. here's to it, folks.


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add it now, bitches. :D

( by 2020 we will be facing a very real energy crisis.. )

my doctor put me on some dietary pills. hopefully, they'll help with the weight issue.

mom says they are going to give me more energy and speed up my metabolism.

she also said they are like a form of speed. i'm so jittery right now.

i played DDR today for the first time in MONTHS! i still rock. -dusts her shoulders off-

i think i'm going to go buy a new video game now.

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guess who is the owner of a new, shiny, lovely, awesome, flame/red GBA?

IT'S ME! w00t.

recommend awesome games. i bought a spyro game today. -snortgiggle- i adore spyro.

pssst..that penguin guy icon-thinger is too hilariously cute. :D

( i must discuss a little harry potter. some slashy-ness ensues... )

-fans herself- moving on...

(  'tis my christmas things, darlings.. )

so, now comes the new year. with it, i hope i can start over and do more right. we'll see how this one goes.

( random things behind this cut.. )

Merry Christmas, lovelies. may all your sweetest wishes come true.

( and a special treat for y'all... )

Post a comment and I'll reply with my fondest memory of you but you gotta post this in your journal so other people can do the same. And if I've never met you in person before (or if I can't reconcile you as a person with you as an LJ), I'll make up something really cool.

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i want my gifts. damnit.

quick update: i forgot to mention that i saw a doctor yesterday. ma was tired of me saying i'm tired all the time, and wanted it checked out. the doctor took some blood. he's going to have it tested for thyroid problems, or possible anemia. :/ results tomorrow. we'll see what happens.

( so, i'm sitting here counting my blessings.. )

on a lighter note, it's snowing. -half smile-

i'm dreaming of a white Christmas, just like the ones i used to know..

( a survey, m'dears.. )

what...what is this?! dare i say...it's an update? oh, shock. :o

yea, anyways. i decided it's time for an update. i don't do this hardly enough. alas, my life is not interesting. i go to school, i work, i do choir activities. that's about it.

saturday, there's going to be a christmas party at my house with my dad's side of the family. yay. :) i'm excited for that. hell, i'm excited for christmas in general. a christmas spent with family is a wonderful one, indeed.

the progression towards all-state tryouts has officially started. last night was all-state intro party, which was lots of fun, let me tell you. we got to eat and sing and do a fun game and get our practice cd's. the music is quite difficult, but i will learn it. fo' sheezy.

umm..i cut a gash in my stomach, somehow, in the past thirty minutes..and it won't stop bleeding. :/ not good, i say.

UGH! i hate hearing songs i love on the radio, but not being able to download them, yet. oh well.

i really don't have much more of importance to say. i think i'm just going to head off to bed.

ohhhh. wait. to people i've promised cards to, they might be late. more than likely, the will be late. my apologies, though. my schedule never really allows me much time for things. :/

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i'm having a bad time. a bad, bad time. -sigh-

life : 2
jillian : 0

i miss my grandma today. i miss her everyday, but today it's a lot more. i wish i could just jump in the car and go see her. but i can't. because she's not there. :( i know next time i go to helena, i'm going to go to the cemetary. i feel the need to talk to her a little bit. i know i can talk to her whenever i want, but being there makes it somewhat closer to being real.

am i simply insane?

"it's getting hard to be someone but it all works out.."

it all works out when? someone tell me that. it's becoming harder everyday for me to be the person i want to be. i want to have my whole life figured out, but i don't. will i ever? who knows.

everything is poopy.

life: 1
jillian: 0

i'm so tired. i'm going to go spend some time with my babies, then go to bed. everyone have a great turkey day. i will. family time is always something i look forward to.

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( i won't let this build up inside of me.. )
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( today i'll say goodbye.. )

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i'm naked! hahahaha.

people want updates, so i'm updating. yes, i'm a slacker, but not by choice. :P actually, i'm just busy. gah, work. but, they hired 7 new people, so hopefully i can work less now. -hopes-

i'm so excited for saturday. we have all-region clinic and a huge concert on saturday night. -squeals- it's going to be so fun. i'm way way way excited. lol. i've got a really cute new skirt and shirt for the concert. and i get my very first all-region t-shirt. YAY! i'm really excited about that. it's going to have my name on it and..SQUEEE! hehe. it's going to be awesome.

i need to dye my hair again. i'm trying to make a decision on what color i want to dye it. i'm thinking auburn again..or dark brown..or maybe a chestnut color, which i guess would be a darker auburn. i want to save up money and dye my hair dark and then get red and caramel highlights or something. that'd be hot.

i need to start figuring out things i want for christmas. -nods- and i need to get addy's for people who want christmas cards again this year. i have some addresses..somewhere. but, i really need people to send them again. heh. it'll be easiest for me that way. you can send addresses to lollipop.whore@gmail.com. wheeeeee.

i'm going now.

"i don't want to be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately.."

i feel like poop. yes, poop. it sucks. i'm sick with something. i've been laying around sleeping pretty much all day. and working on my english project due wednesday when i am up. i can barely eat without it coming back up. i have this nasty, horrible cough and it hurts so bad. my throat feels raw as hell. i need to get over this bullshit. next weekend, i have all region clinic to go to. can't be sick for that.

seeing as i'm running a fever and have been throwing up, i called into work tonight. well, when i called in and told them i was sick, i got wrote up for it. the bitch said "well, you know today is saturday, and we're sooo busy. we usually require a doctor's note for missing a saturday." i was like "well, i can't go to the doctor. we don't have medical insurance." and then she pulled some shit about how i should have called with three hours notice instead of two. i was like "i haven't even been UP for two hours." and she was like "well, i've still got to write you up for it." i just told her whatever, and that i still thought it was stupid. i fucking hate mcdonald's. i'm going to try to get a job at dollar tree. they start out at $6. hopefully they will hire me.

i guess i'll quit my bitchin' for now.

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things are confusing as of late. i thought i had shit figured out mostly, but i know i don't now. -bangs her head on the desk- i'm going to leave it at that for now. mainly because i really don't know what else to say. -sigh-

on a better note, i bought the Travis CD i wanted finally and i bought a very nice tshirt. it's got Joe Strummer on it, and a quote on the back.

"One day truth and justice will reign." -Joe Strummer

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday dear jilly, happy birthday to me. :D hehe. -bounces around-